I started my path to discovering my authentic self over a year ago now. I had spent 24 years doing things the hard way, every time. I was determined to make my own mistakes. From a very young age, I was considered "emotionally mature." In reality, I was walking around afraid and confused. I had too many emotions that were way too big for my age. I had mixed feelings that turned into trust issues and commitment issues and abandonment issues, the list could go on. Just as long as the list of "partners" I went through in the process. Forever blessed with humor and blunt honesty, all the dirt is guaranteed to come out in the wash.
I made it through 100% of the struggles I really thought were going to take me down for good. Fortunately, I am still here, and with great stories to tell as well as knowledge and tools I've gained along the way. Including but never limited to Self-Care, Spirituality, Hypnosis, and
Psychology--if you can think it, I've probably tried it, or have it written down on a list somewhere amongst the piles of journals and notebooks. What could be better to hoard than self-care, love, and awareness?
Writing a blog or anything to tell my stories has been a dream of mine since I was a little girl and I'm so beyond happy that the journey to finding my most authentic self--outside of family and relationships led me back to dreams I had nearly forgotten about or given up on. Not on them necessarily, but on myself. Not anymore. I stopped living on autopilot waiting for the world to end.
I shifted my own narrative. I would no longer box myself in, or crush myself beneath someone else's label. I decided to start doing things that made me happy just because they made me happy. Because they brought me closer to myself. If I was still scared or nervous, but I knew it would help---look at me, doing it! Right here, right now.
I hope you can find a little piece of light here in my multi-path discovery of my truest self. Take the leap into the unknown, and be as open-minded as you can. Do no harm and use life to learn about everything that makes it so.
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